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So it looks like this was a chemical pregnancy. I am so sad for Y&S and a little sad for me too. Cycling isn't easy and I was really hoping it would take the first time around. Of course they still have me on medication just in case. My last beta is tomorrow and I am not expecting it to have risen at all. So moving on to plan B...


As of right now we are kind of in limbo. Y & S have decided to use an egg donor so now I have to wait while they find one. Hopefully it won't take too long. The egg donor should make it easier to get pregnant next time around. So hopefully it will work our next cycle!

So Monday was our beta. It was only 29.2. This means the HcG level was really low. Anything about a 5 is pregnant but with it being only 29.2 it means we still have to worry because there is a possibility it is a chemical.


The second beta was this morning at 8:15. Now I am waiting on the results. Expecting the phone call any second. Actually I was hoping to know something a lot earlier but nothing yet. This mornings pee stick didn't look as good as I would like. It seemed to be getting darker until this mornings test. Ahhhh all the stress and anxiety.

Hopefully I will be posting good news shortly but if it isn't I am positive about moving on to the next cycle.

After much obsessing I finally started seeing some positives. The first was faint, really faint and I couldn't even get a picture. That was around 6:00 last night. Then this morning at 5:30 I tested again. Here is what it looked like. Yes it is really there I swear, you just have to look really really hard.

You can use this website to see the image inverted and you can see it better. http://www.canyouseealine.com/view_home_pregnancy_test.cfm?theaction=invert&testID=8466#edited Yes I was desperate enough to post my pregnancy test on a site called canyouseealine.com. But the good news is I am not the only one. There 5572 other members on the site that are as obsessed if not more so then I am.

Then on the drive back from Atlanta I drove by a CVS. Of course I had to stop. I was out of pregnancy test and I needed to make sure that the above faint line was not an evaporation line. So I got two different kinds. I got the ones that show a line and then I got the ones that are digital and show a yes or no. I am not sure I was expecting to see anything though. So anyway I buy them at CVS and then drive for an hour. Why not just test at CVS you ask? Well for one I would look desperate or something if I went straight to the CVS bathroom. LOL! Two I was all peed out and I knew I wouldn't be able to pee enough for 2 sticks which was my plan. Sad I know. So without further ado here are the results...
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Of course I called Y&S first. I had already emailed her the pictures that I took with my phone but I still had to call her and tell her to check her email. They are over joyed but a bit cautious I think. I am trying to be cautious. I know that there is always a chance of it being a chemical or ending in miscarriage. But it is hard to not be elated when you see those nice pink lines and that big fat YES! Beta is tomorrow. Hoping for a good number!

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